So it has been months upon months since the last time i even remotely thought about trying to do this again. within the last few weeks i have started to notice that everyday i tried harder and harder not to do this, it became more and more of a necessity. so here i am again, writing "a dumb little journal" as most people i know call it, but to me it's a bit more than that now. God has been showing me so many things lately that in all honesty it becomes quite overwhelming, and i want to share to the world these things. yea, its quite likely that no one will give a darn but there could be that one lost soul out there who is going through the same thing and will relate. Go ahead and call me a loser if ya will, i dont mind haha...
going back to what i said earlier...ive been trying to put this off so hard for the past few months, doing anything possible but to write (type) on this. it's not just my little web blog though, i see now i have been hiding from other things that make up who i am. it feels like most days that i am just rolling dice and trying to just do the things to get by in life and its not true. Albert Einstein was once quoted:
"At any rate, I am convinced that He does not play dice"
i think it is true to think that we never really stop to think about the forces going on in our lives, be it God, Allah, your toaster, and relating to the second quote it is not us rolling dice...for there are no dice at all. the unknown scares the living crud out of people, myself included, and it is the unknown that isnt really all that mysterious at all. yea, we may not know if we lose a loved one tomorrow, or that date we have wanted for so long is a huge flop, but someone else does...and is that such a bad thing? so what if we havent got a clue about what our life holds, for if we want a good one and show that ambition, dont you think it'll happen? sure we have to do things to make it come true...go to school, not kill anyone, help that random stranger...but where, does it say we have to worry about everything on this green earth?
if we were meant to become rapist or killers, why would He make us at all? to torrment people? idont think so...so why worry about going down that road when you can know that you arent supposed to? its beyond a religious matter as well. even and aetheist could agree that no one should just kill another person for kicks. if our life is so random that its just a roll of the dice and how lady luck favors us then there is honestly no point in even trying anymore...just get up from this computer and sit down somewhere till amazing things happen to you, or you can get up and try, try for a more meaningful life.
its choice, not chance that determines your destiny. so next time you get upset at that stressful situation, why not take a deep breath and take it in...dont just blow up. or the next time things dont go your way, just think that maybe this is a road you need to walk along,not one you have to...
